It happened

I experienced family not truly understanding what I have to go through the other day. Although, after the fact, Geoff expressed the possibility of it not being completely directed at me.

We were at my in-laws and my Father-in-law was making spaghetti sauce. His sauce is soooo yummy. Thank goodness I can still have it. I had my special gluten-free noodles so I could enjoy the meal too. I was cooking my noodles in one pan and he was cooking the "other" noodles in his pan. Without thinking, he grabbed his spoon that he had just used to stir his noodles and stirred mine. Dang! All those noodles became trash. Good thing I had extra.

So, I started again. My Father-in-law left the room and so I was hoping that he wouldn't even notice that I had to start over because I truly didn't want to be confronted about it for the fear and him not understanding. After washing everything, I got more water boiling. He came back in and my husband(whom I was hoping would be there when my Father-in-law inquired about it) and temporarily left the room.

I did get asked. Oh no, here it comes. He asked why I was boiling more water. I told him I was making more noodles. (I was secretly hoping he wouldn't go further.) Then the question, "Why?". Aww dang, I have to answer. "Because you stirred my noodles after you stirred yours.", answered quite sheepishly. Then there was the huff and the tsk. I wanted to cry, and guess what, when Geoff came back, I sort of did.....just a little. It was hard. This is hard sometimes. Trust me, I would love to be able to not to make a big deal out of things, but with this, I have to.

Geoff pointed out to me a few days later(after talking with his family) that he almost thinks that his dad's response was actually towards himself. It is like my Brother-in-law has said. He told me right away that he wanted to apologize right then because there will be times, probably many, that they will do things and not even think. Frankly, I don't blame him. They don't have this disease. They don't have to think about this multiple times a day. It would be easy to forget all the little things that I have to deal with.

I can't blame my Father-in-law. Truthfully, I don't. I do, however, can look at it from a different light now. That alone, is helpful.